in the words of....

sometimes you hear a song or watch a show or read a blip and all of a sudden you can't breath becuase in that instant whatever you just heard put words to the place you are, the thoughts you've had, or the feelings you just don't seem to be able to express any other way. I had a couple of those moments in the last couple of days and so... here they are.

the song playing as i waited for my interview at NY & Co.:
She got the call today
One out of the gray
And when the smoke cleared
It took her breath away
She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees
We're gonna get there soon
If every building falls
And all the stars fade
We'll still be singin' this song
The one they can't take away
I'm gonna get there soon,
She's gonna be there too
Cryin' in her room
Prayin' Lord, come through
We're gonna get there soon
[Chorus:]Oh it's your light,
Oh it's your way,
Pull me out of the dark
Just to show me the way
Cryin' out now
From so far away...
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Meet me once again
Down off Lake Michigan
Where we could feel the storm blowin' down with the wind
And don't apologize
For all the tears you've cried
You've been way too strong now for all your life
I'm gonna get there soon,
You're gonna be there too
Cryin' in your room,
Prayin' Lord come through
We're gonna get there soon
[Chorus:]Oh, it's your light
Oh, it's your way
Pull me out of the dark
Just to show me the way
Cryin' out now
From so far away...Pull me closer to love
Closer to love'
Cause you are all that I've waited for
All of my life (We're gonna get there)
You are all that I've waited for
All of my life
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Pull me closer to love
Pull me closer to love
Closer to love, oh no
Closer to love
Closer to love
Pull me closer to love

Two scenes from Grey Anatmony this week. and while they aren't the exact issues i face. i must say it captured the way i feel. ooooh my theraputic greys'.

Callie: ...You should have adjusted by now. i mean you are supposed to love me no matter what. that's what a parent does.
Her Dad: i love you with all my heart, but with all that's going on with you right now. I'm scared for you. Its an abomination. Its an eternity in hell.
The Priest: Let's not start with words like "hell".
Callie: OH. that's why you flew 3,000 miles??? to tell me i was going to Hell?!? I thought you came here to apologize.
Her Dad: I cant' apologize Callie. I don't understnad what happened or where I went wrong.
Callie: Where you went "wrong"?
Her Dad: (pulls paper out) Leviticus, "Thou shalt not lie with a man as one does with a female..."
Callie: Oh don't do that...
Her Father: ... "it is an abomination"....
Callie:... don't quote the Bible at me....
Her Father: ..."the outcry of Sodom & Gamora is great" and there is this, "it is exceedingly grave"...
The Priest: Carlos, this is not what we....
Callie: JESUS. "a new commandment that i give unto you that you love one another."
Her Dad: ROMANS. "we know that..."
Callie: JESUS. "to he who is without sin, let him cast the first stone."
Her Dad: so you admit that it's a sin?
Callie: "Blessed are the mercyful for they shall obtain mercy". JESUS. "Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God". JESUS. "Blessed are those who have been persecuted fro righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." Jesus is my savior daddy, not you. and Jesus would be ashamed of you for judging me. He would be ashamed of you for turning your back on me. He would be ashamed.

and the second scene from greys.....

Mer: Christina?
Christina: (crying)
Mer: Christina? Christina. Talk to me
Christina: (sobbing) No.
Mer: Christina.
Christina: (gasping)
Mer: What happened?
Christina: (sobbing)
Mer: Talk to me. Tell me what happened.
Christina: (through sobs) Nothing! Nothing. is. happening to me. i know. I know... i don't know what I'm doing. I'm chasing after surgerys I don't care about (gasp, pause). Do you know how long it's been since i've held a haeart in my hand? Since I've felt , that, that, joy (gasp) that rush> (gasp) I miss Burke. I miss him all day. I, I, I, miss... It's not the relationship... I miss... Everyday when he was here I held hearts. and I got picked, not because of some favoritism but just because it was right. and I learned. I learned. (pause, sob) And I felt seen. And now, you know what? I don't know what... I've spent this entire day fighting (gasp) and I don't wanna do it anymore.

And of course... the Private Practice....

Addison: Nobody beat me. Nobody tried to steal my baby. Nobody stabbed me. BUT. I am wounded sam.
Sam: Noah?
Addison: *sigh* my heart is broken. And I shouldn't even complain about it because Nothing happened. I mean. nothing. happened to me. Not like what happened to the larsons, and Violet. You know sometimes I'm almost jealous of them because everybody can see their injuries and so they have a right to be messed up. I sent Noah back to his wife. I did the right thing. and... my heart is broken.

just a few good scenes.