yesterday a couple of co-workers and i went out on Greers Ferry Lake. I thought it was going to be just a short little boat ride around the lake and then call it good. It was already a quarter after 7 and so how late could we really be gone anyways?
well... we went out a little ways on the lake. and just let the boat sit... and we sat and talked about the adventures of the day (and there have been many adventures). and then with the heat wave, etc.... swimming commenced. and it seemed once we started, we just didn't stop. we swam or tread water or floated for almost 3 hours in the lake. talking. listening to the radio. and just relaxing.
the sun went down and the stars began to come out and off in the distance over a mountain a lightening storm commenced. and so we drifted along in the water watching the scenery. it was amazingly lovely and mostly relaxing.
i do think i might have wore myself out a bit as i went directly to bed without showering, washing my face, or even taking my damp clothes off. but i woke up with no tension... at least until i got to work this morning.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
My alone time - Sacrificed
so upon getting to work and attempting to get a hotel for the rest of my stay, i find out there is a room available but there is nothing in town for the last night. so the office manager lets me stay in her spare 'oom last night. which is cool we cooked out and another co-worker popped over who is from Brighton. and it was lovely. however, both insist. INSIST. that i stay up there and "live" a little while i am here and not work so much.
i had originally planned for this two weeks to be a time of contemplation, reflection, and questioning. searching for answers to what i realized in the last week is a lot of questions about my world views that i just didn't know about.
so now, with the insistence that i stay up where everyone lives and stays... how do i say. that is lovely, but i'm soul searching in my free time. *sigh* trust me. it doesn't work so well.
to say the least i am a bit bummed. but i think i will have to find ways to have time alone and think and read regardless. perhaps if i get up early and go to bed early... i can read and have those moments of thought and contemplation. it will make it more difficult.
i had originally planned for this two weeks to be a time of contemplation, reflection, and questioning. searching for answers to what i realized in the last week is a lot of questions about my world views that i just didn't know about.
so now, with the insistence that i stay up where everyone lives and stays... how do i say. that is lovely, but i'm soul searching in my free time. *sigh* trust me. it doesn't work so well.
to say the least i am a bit bummed. but i think i will have to find ways to have time alone and think and read regardless. perhaps if i get up early and go to bed early... i can read and have those moments of thought and contemplation. it will make it more difficult.
i have been pondering about sacrifice the last several days. what does it mean? what place should it take in your life? what does it look like? how do you know if it's too much? too little? i tend to be a bit on the masochistic side of life. i take pain well. and can suck up just about anything. and so sacrifice tends to be something comfortable for me... but i am realizing. questioning. where the balance lies. there will be more on this to come. but a little insight into some of the things i'm pondering.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Third Times a Charm
and yet again i am *gasp* in arkansas!
this is my third trip this summer. this time it's only been two weeks since my last trip. two weeks to settle into the new apartment. needless to say - not much settling happening. but i am taking deep breathes and taking it for what it is. nothing i can do about it.
however, i do have too say i am riding one lucky wave of rental cars. I always, always, always shop every rental car place for the cheapest rates and always choose the economy car... i figure i own a Chevy Aveo... why not rent one? and thus far, i have gotten nothing but lucky. on the first trip i was upgraded to a Saturn Vue. Even the boss, was jealous. The second trip, a Volkswagon Rabbit... i was rocking it, i'm telling you. And this time, i kid you not... she looks for the keys to the pathetic little Aveo... and says.. "oh, no cars... do you mind the convertible p.t. cruiser?"... hmmm... let me think about this. My work pays the gas, since it's a work trip. I rented the cheapest car i could and you don't have one. and i could spend two weeks tooling around the ozarks with the wind blowing through my hair.... it was a hard choice. let me tell you.
i am beyond amused at my luck. i smiled all the way to the hotel. this time since my flight was late. (i hate southwest). i just snagged a room outside of little rock. i will drive the rest of the way in the morning. (it's an hour and half drive easy).
this week has been a crazy week. read CRAZY WEEK. perhaps blogging for another day.
this is my third trip this summer. this time it's only been two weeks since my last trip. two weeks to settle into the new apartment. needless to say - not much settling happening. but i am taking deep breathes and taking it for what it is. nothing i can do about it.
however, i do have too say i am riding one lucky wave of rental cars. I always, always, always shop every rental car place for the cheapest rates and always choose the economy car... i figure i own a Chevy Aveo... why not rent one? and thus far, i have gotten nothing but lucky. on the first trip i was upgraded to a Saturn Vue. Even the boss, was jealous. The second trip, a Volkswagon Rabbit... i was rocking it, i'm telling you. And this time, i kid you not... she looks for the keys to the pathetic little Aveo... and says.. "oh, no cars... do you mind the convertible p.t. cruiser?"... hmmm... let me think about this. My work pays the gas, since it's a work trip. I rented the cheapest car i could and you don't have one. and i could spend two weeks tooling around the ozarks with the wind blowing through my hair.... it was a hard choice. let me tell you.
i am beyond amused at my luck. i smiled all the way to the hotel. this time since my flight was late. (i hate southwest). i just snagged a room outside of little rock. i will drive the rest of the way in the morning. (it's an hour and half drive easy).
this week has been a crazy week. read CRAZY WEEK. perhaps blogging for another day.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
The Times they are a-changing
a year ago... almost to the day, i moved out of my "marital room" and into the "spare -oom" (go ahead, hear the narnia lingo in your head). it was at that moment, i became, somewhat, homeless. no longer living in a home that i had created with my husband, but instead sleeping on a HORRIBLE futon mattress on the floor of the room where arts and crafts normally took place.
From there, i moved in with a sweet and adorable cousin of sean's and stayed in her "spare -oom" with only a few things of my own that i needed on a daily basis. and then about 3 months later, moved to Detroit where my gracious soon-to-be-ex-sister-in-law, allowed me to stay through winter while i tried to get my feet back under me. Everything i owned packed in boxes in her basement with the exception of the clothes i needed and a few girly lotions and a picture of my precious little niece. As Winter began to dwindle, i moved once again to stay with a friend downriver till i could secure a place of my own - in what i hoped would be - 2 months. i flew to arkansas for work in that time and all along yearned for a place to call home. all of my previous stays, were indeed homey and i most certainly couldn't have made it this far without them. but there is something to be said for having a little piece of earth, even if rented, that you can say "mine" to. that you can decorate. where you can let your hair down in a way you can't anywhere else. there is just something to be said for that.
and alas, i have secured such a place... finally. a little apartment surrounded by trees and parks and a lake, in ypsi. Unfortunately, i found such a little jem the week before i was to leave for Arkansas for two weeks... so the extent of "moving in" was my couch, bench, and a chaise lounge before i left for work.
and then upon my return, i found out i would be leaving again for Arkansas in two weeks. less than one week from today. so that means two weeks to move. two weeks to get my life into some kind of order before i jet off to the ozarks to be all consumed by work. and this same two weeks, has overlapped the two weeks that my dear friends husband has been gone with the national guard for training. which is wonderful. but he leaves behind 6 children, ages - 12, 11, 10 ,9 and twin 7 month old babies. THAT in a nutshell... overwhelming and yet... each child has there own issues, it's a blended family of the most extreme modern blended family and one of the child has possibly autism. uncaught till now. so these two weeks have been taken over with helping out a friend. which i love doing. but i don't think work really cares.... i wonder if i spun it that really... i was helping the country. because it's stepping up to assist in the absence of a man that is training to help the country... i wonder if that would work??? it's a thought.
so my life. in a nutshell, is spinning. helping national guard widows, keeping up with work, unpacking boxes, finding and purchasing needed things like - plates (more poor dog is STILL eating dinner out of box lid) and somehow finding time to spend with my darling thomas. it's a lot. but i have faith that this is just a season of life.
but looking back to where i started a year ago... i've come a long way.
From there, i moved in with a sweet and adorable cousin of sean's and stayed in her "spare -oom" with only a few things of my own that i needed on a daily basis. and then about 3 months later, moved to Detroit where my gracious soon-to-be-ex-sister-in-law, allowed me to stay through winter while i tried to get my feet back under me. Everything i owned packed in boxes in her basement with the exception of the clothes i needed and a few girly lotions and a picture of my precious little niece. As Winter began to dwindle, i moved once again to stay with a friend downriver till i could secure a place of my own - in what i hoped would be - 2 months. i flew to arkansas for work in that time and all along yearned for a place to call home. all of my previous stays, were indeed homey and i most certainly couldn't have made it this far without them. but there is something to be said for having a little piece of earth, even if rented, that you can say "mine" to. that you can decorate. where you can let your hair down in a way you can't anywhere else. there is just something to be said for that.
and alas, i have secured such a place... finally. a little apartment surrounded by trees and parks and a lake, in ypsi. Unfortunately, i found such a little jem the week before i was to leave for Arkansas for two weeks... so the extent of "moving in" was my couch, bench, and a chaise lounge before i left for work.
and then upon my return, i found out i would be leaving again for Arkansas in two weeks. less than one week from today. so that means two weeks to move. two weeks to get my life into some kind of order before i jet off to the ozarks to be all consumed by work. and this same two weeks, has overlapped the two weeks that my dear friends husband has been gone with the national guard for training. which is wonderful. but he leaves behind 6 children, ages - 12, 11, 10 ,9 and twin 7 month old babies. THAT in a nutshell... overwhelming and yet... each child has there own issues, it's a blended family of the most extreme modern blended family and one of the child has possibly autism. uncaught till now. so these two weeks have been taken over with helping out a friend. which i love doing. but i don't think work really cares.... i wonder if i spun it that really... i was helping the country. because it's stepping up to assist in the absence of a man that is training to help the country... i wonder if that would work??? it's a thought.
so my life. in a nutshell, is spinning. helping national guard widows, keeping up with work, unpacking boxes, finding and purchasing needed things like - plates (more poor dog is STILL eating dinner out of box lid) and somehow finding time to spend with my darling thomas. it's a lot. but i have faith that this is just a season of life.
but looking back to where i started a year ago... i've come a long way.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
a new beginning
well, it is a new blog.
in view of the changes in my life. in my company now monitoring myspaces and the like. and that perhaps i have grown up beyond "livejournal". i have started this new lovely blog. what i am thinking of as "the grown-up blog". a place to put out into the greater wide (web) world my thoughts, my life, and of course... random rants that burst forth in moments of frustration.
i had much to say as i drove from sherman to little rock, plotting funny and witty posts. thought provoking and contemplative. and now. exhausted from the weekend of family. the stress of my grandfather being ill. a flat tire in texarkana. this will have to do for the 1st post. perhaps the next will encompass all of those things... and maybe even a picture....
in view of the changes in my life. in my company now monitoring myspaces and the like. and that perhaps i have grown up beyond "livejournal". i have started this new lovely blog. what i am thinking of as "the grown-up blog". a place to put out into the greater wide (web) world my thoughts, my life, and of course... random rants that burst forth in moments of frustration.
i had much to say as i drove from sherman to little rock, plotting funny and witty posts. thought provoking and contemplative. and now. exhausted from the weekend of family. the stress of my grandfather being ill. a flat tire in texarkana. this will have to do for the 1st post. perhaps the next will encompass all of those things... and maybe even a picture....
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