If a blog can be a "get your thoughts out of your head and into space", can it also be begging forum to the unknown space for a job???? My unemployment is running out. The new claim is denied as expected and i believe i have 13 weeks of federal extension left (i'm not positive just gunna have to wait and see) - and then, i'm s.o.l.
it's hard for me to believe that i've been jobless so long. I find myself driving and thinking to myself, could it REALLY be over a year now??? and i find myself thinking i must have done something wrong. made some wrong choice. blew off some offer somewhere. but i haven't. nothing. there have been no offers. i have applied like gang-busters for a year and nothing. I went back to school to become more marketable. nothing. I really just don't know what I could do different. or why my life is taking this path.
Sometimes i lay in bed at night and wonder what i did wrong. or if i'm being cosmical punished for something. i haven't been perfect. but i don't think i've really done anything to warrant such a negative down turn of life. like a decade down turn???
I'm just getting to that point where i've just got nothing else to give. niceness seems gone. patience - gone. happiness - ha! that was gone LoooooooOOOOOooong ago. my grace for others is slipping. thoughtfulness just seem annoying.
anywho, if a blog can be a begging to cosmic web-gods for a job... this is mine. Ppppppplllllleeeeeaaaase. i'm a really good worker. i won't leave after 2 years. and i'm not always this much of a debbie-downer. i actually, once-upon-a-time, was considered a valuable asset to a company. and i will do good things for yours.
so my fingers are crossed in desperate act of begging for job - the schoolcraft one - it's my last good feeler out there.
and dinner is served... *sigh*
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