rest? or procrastination?

so i am attempting to write daily. or maybe close to it. just to be closer to those that are actually far away.

today was kind of a wash day. in fact, lots of the days feel that way. but if we applied for jobs then i think i've done what i am suppose to do. but of course, i usually feel pretty down at the end of that. because job hunting just isn't what it used to be back in the day. back in the day, you had your resume in hand and you physically went in and shook someones hand, you introduced yourself, and they could decide without a personality test that you would or would not be a good fit for their company. But now in the age of technoloy and de-personalization job hunting is now you and your computer and the only thing a potential employeer sees is a piece of paper that represents you. or is at least suppose to represent you. and so many people lie this day and age. or try to make themselves look better than what they are. and so my resume, honest to a freaking crossed 't' looks, i'm sure, no different then joe shmo (not to be confused with the overly talked about joe the plumber) down the street. i'm sure i get thrown in the pile of all the rest. and my friends i am just not an "all the rest" kind of worker. i am good damn it. but when you are treated like you don't matter. you kinda start to feel that way. and so job hunting isn't what it used to be. and at the end of applying for every job posted on craigslist, careerbuilder, monster, the atlanta journal of constitution which uses Yahoo! Hot Jobs and then simplyhired on a daily basis and not getting a single response day after day after day... today i didn't.

i meant to. i had every intention to. but i got up. cleaned the kitchen. got erin her meds. dyed my hair (nothing special). ate some lunch. watched a movie with erin in which i was so sleepy i fell asleep adn then woke up, helped make dinner, cleaned the kitchen, folded some laundry, ran the vaccum and then walked to get the mail. and the day is gone. i feel guilty i didn't job hunt today. okay i applied for one job. but not the usual regiment. and yet i also feel rested. and not depressed about the non-responses i'm getting. just guilty. if i could only shake that guilt. :)

anywho, my mom did make a call and ask if i would at the very least be interviewed for the job at DeVry. She was told i was already on the list. They are only interviewing 5 people. and i know that there is also an internal person interested in the position. My mom says it's up to me to get it. She can only get me an interview. so they are suppose to be calling for personality tests and an interview. We shall see.

on the other hand, i got a call from a company wanting to know if i would relocate to Dallas, TX for a job. *sigh* i JUST did that. ... if only i had the job. ;)

but alas, Grey's Anatomy is on in 18 minutes and the world will be right for an hour before i must return to reality.